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The Government Bakery

Today I visited the government bakery for the first time.  The cost of bread there is incredibly cheap.  Here’s how it happened. 

A few weeks ago, when we first moved into the neighborhood, I was walking down the street and noticed a lot of people standing in front of what looked like a jail cell.  There was a throng of people in front of a big barred window.  Not too far from them, several other people were putting pita bread on the ground.  Well, not directly on the ground, but on steps or an elevated area near the barred window.  And then several other people were just standing or sitting near the numerous pita breads strewn about.  I wondered what was the deal with this place, but wasn’t shopping for bread on this outing, so just tucked it away in my mind for the future.

Today was the future.  I’ve been buying bread mostly at the small bakery around the corner from our apartment.  Very convenient.  A few times I have bought bread on the other side of the metro tracks if I was shopping at the market over there.  But today, the only thing I needed was bread, and I thought I would check out this mystery place.

I put Hannah (age 1 ½) and Emma (age 3) in the double stroller, which doubles as our car around here (and conveniently, the words here for car and stroller are the same), and pushed them out to Road 9 heading North.  After a few blocks, I saw the familiar sight: a throng in front of the barred window and others hanging around the pita bread strewn basically on the ground.  I didn’t think I wanted the stuff on the ground, and it didn’t look like anyone was selling that anyway, so I joined the throng, after parking the double stroller right next to me in line.  I watched as the people at the front of the throng got their bread in spurts…as the man behind the bars handed it to them.  After a couple minutes, the man in front of me turned and said to me in basic English, “you should be there.”  I noticed that the throng was divided in two parts: men on the right and women on the left.  Whoops.  I moved to the left line while leaving the stroller parked on the right…albeit within arms’ reach.  Now, I don’t know why the throng is divided into two sections.  The only guess I have is that the concept of a “line” does not really apply in most places in this country.  So, there is a lot of pushing and squeezing your way either in front of people, or simply standing firm on your ground so as not to get squeezed out.  So, my only guess is that it’s better to be doing this pushing and squeezing among the same sex rather than mixing.  I could be way off, though, it’s just a guess.

I kept watching how things were working here while keeping one eye on the stroller.  Eventually I noticed that people weren’t just being handed a bag of bread, as is customary at the other places I bought bread.  So I asked the woman in front of me if I needed my own bag.  She said yes.  The only bag I had brought with me was Emma’s Dora backpack, and I didn’t want to put the bread in that, so I asked the woman where I could get a bag.  She pointed to the small grocery storefront next door.  So, keeping one eye on the stroller again, I walked next door and bought a bag for my bread.  It seemed a little ridiculous to me because had I known I needed a bag, I could have brought one of the 50 plastic bags I have back at the house, but instead, I paid about 5 cents for a plastic bag.  I returned to the line and had my 3 guinea in my hand planning to buy 12 pita breads…because the cost is normally 4 pitas for 1 guinea, which, by the way, translates into 4 pitas for 18 cents. The woman noticed my money or my bag or both, and asked how much I planned to buy.  I told her 3 guinea.  She said that the limit here was 1 ½ guinea and that my bag wouldn’t hold it all!  I said, how much do you get?  She said you get 20 pitas for one guinea!  Wow, talk about savings!  I asked her why it was so much cheaper than other places and she simply answered that it was the government bakery.  I was impressed with the savings and knew Jayson would be too, but I did have to buy another plastic bag for 5 cents in order to hold my 20 pitas (since I decided at this point that 20 would be quite enough for us….especially considering our freezer space.)  So, after I bought the bag and got back in line, a woman behind me said I should move the stroller to the women’s side too, which was a good idea since I was getting deeper into the throng and my line of vision was getting smaller.  I moved the stroller to the women’s side and the girls enjoyed interacting with the other kids around while I waited and waited and waited in the throng.  Probably the whole waiting time, including changing lines and two trips to the next door store was about 30 minutes. 

As I got closer to the front, I made some observations about the bakery.  It was very basic.  Every couple minutes, the man would bring out a large wicker “tray” filled with piping hot pita bread…maybe about 40 pitas on one tray.  Of course, since you can get 20 for a guinea, this would go very quickly so we would have to wait for the next tray and the next tray.  I noticed there were some shelves behind the man…but they had nothing on them.  I wondered if they sometimes had bread on them during the “down” times?  I am not sure if I was there at a busy time or not.  I also noticed about three or four cockroaches on the walls.  Now this scared me a bit.  I started to wonder if I should be buying bread at this establishment.  What would I find inside the pita?  The bugs weren’t moving, but I don’t know if cockroaches can die on a wall, although I’ve seen plenty of dead cockroaches on the floor.  Either way, the ovens were behind the walls so we couldn’t see the condition of them or the flour or anything that went into the bread.  Oh well, sometimes it’s better not to see things.  I also had the thought that if people saw the 100 dead ants on my kitchen floor, they might think my food isn’t clean either, but that’s another story.  I made a mental note to ask my landlord’s wife and doorman’s wife about this bakery.  It only makes sense for everyone to buy their bread here…it’s so much cheaper than anywhere else, but it wasn’t the most convenient place for sure.

Well, once I got to the front of the line, that’s when the pushing and line jostling began in earnest.  I was getting a bit perturbed as I felt people sticking their money up through the bars ahead of me…the rightful holder of “first in line.”  I told myself that if I didn’t have two little ones who I had to keep turning my head to check on, I would be fine with letting others in front of me, but couldn’t they see I should be able to get my bread and go?  Truth is it probably would have grated on me either way!  Finally, the man took my money and I told him I wanted a guinea worth (remember, 20 piping hot fresh pita breads for 18 cents!) and when he brought the next tray out, he dumped them all at me on the counter.  Now, I thought that before me, the man was taking stacks and putting them in people’s bags or on their newspapers…whatever they had brought to carry them in…but this time I was left to put the pita in my bag by myself.  So that’s what I did, but not without burning my fingers!  Were they hot! …especially when I accidentally pierced the pita letting the steam come out!  A nice woman beside me helped with some of them, and I grabbed my two very full bags and made my way out of the throng to the waiting stroller. 

And now I saw previous customers with their pita bread strewn about on the steps and elevated areas, letting their bread cool, and I understood why they were doing that.  (Although I still didn’t like the idea of putting it outside on the ground.)  I just left the pita in the bags, but left them open so steam could escape, and figured that I could lay them around my kitchen (albeit, away from the ants) when I got home.  Will I go back there?  It took a long time and was a hassle, but who can pass up such a deal, especially if I bring my own bags…I’ll save 10 cents from my last visit!

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A Sense of Belonging

There is a certain alienation that comes from life away from home. Home, of course, can be variously defined. On one extreme it can be wherever I lay my head, on the other it can be the insulated community that either forbids an exit or so transforms its inhabitants that they ever fear it. A better estimation of home is the place of family, but how wide should this circle be drawn, and what of those who through no fault of their own, lack such a centering force? Where is home best located?

I think the feature which can unite all plausible definitions of home is a sense of belonging. Life away from home, however defined, rips one away from all which is dear and precious, and no matter the reward or the adventure involved, places one in the context of those untroubled by the earlier absence, and unconcerned for the continuing presence. While this is rarely true in the absolute sense, one away from home must seek out bonds of belonging for his very psychological welfare. Without them, he is a man adrift.

We, the authors of this blog, are an American family who live in Egypt, a country populated by a race widely celebrated for their welcome to and hospitality toward strangers. We also are beginning a job with an international workforce, and are living in the part of Cairo densely populated by foreigners, including many of our compatriots. All of these factors suggest that we may suffer less than others in developing a new sense of belonging. Yet the quickest solutions are laden with obstacles which may keep a true sense of belonging from ever taking hold.

Absent from the definition above is any mention of place. Home, though not a residence, is an intangible connection to those who reside in a given location. It is a very fluid connection, for over time the individuals in such a location will change, and the locus of one’s residence in the location may shift. Yet for a sense of belonging to emerge and persevere there must be a dual permanence of people and place. For this, the international community is clearly lacking. Most foreigners do not stay long, so the pattern of attachment and detachment corrodes a sense of belonging. In addition, all come from another home, another place. Whether their stay is long or short, how can they ever belong to the land itself? If our need for belonging is met primarily here, it will ever be a temporary exchange of convenience, no matter how true or how deep the friendships become.

We have no guarantees on how long we will be here. We know we will never belong to the land. We know we are guests who have no claim to belong. We can be celebrated or despised, honored or tolerated, exploited or ignored, but these are responses given to those who do not belong. What hope can we have in here finding our home?

Nevertheless we will try. If from desperation we will be unfulfilled. If from agenda we will be rejected. It is our only hope that if from love we may find appreciation. We will seek to speak like them, live like them, become like them. At the same time, we will know that we will never achieve this, and we will not live as if it were not so. It is neither goal nor means; it is a token, offered humbly, of our respect and admiration. It is an exclamation of our desire to belong.

The desire to belong assumes a desire to contribute. Yet this contribution must be for the good of those who naturally belong, from whom we will derive our own benefit. To belong is to care for the common welfare, to participate in search of common solutions. Yet the tension of not-belonging must inherently limit; a guest should be silent and appreciative of what is given. The desire to serve can be experienced as and may indeed be drawn from an inflated self-worth, no matter how kind. Surely the greater blesses the less. The usurpation of a sense of superiority will trump any sense of belonging.

Armed with this knowledge we proceed cautiously. Yet herein lies the secret. We aim for belonging here in our locality because we have experienced belonging in a greater sense. It is our hope and faith that we belong to God. One confident in such a truth can seek to belong wherever he wishes. Confident we are eternally accepted, we can risk rejection in every other arena. This, we hope, is love, which produces service, which without belonging is experienced as paternalism. So, we will serve, we will seek to belong, and if denied, we will hurt. Yet the reward is great. If we belong to them, then they also will belong to us, and the emerging “we” can experience together the grace that belongs alone to God.

“A Sense of Belonging” will chronicle our lives in this reality. It is our hope that as we live and learn, you also may watch and learn with us. Any sense of belonging we may create together is a bonus.